Where were you last night? in my bed baby! What is todays date? um friday april 8th Who was the last person to call you baby/babe? nathan ray barker. When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout? depends on the lines? Anyone crushing on you? haha nah. probbably not. How tall are you? 5'3 Who was the last person to say they loved you, and when? megan haha! yesterday! Do you like your parents? i surely do, i love them too! they make me laugh :) Do you secretly like someone? its not a secret, they are fully aware. Why did your last relationship end? i ended it, cause.. no comment. What is your relationship status? SINGLE. Has anyone ever sang to you? yes :) it was sooo sweet and sooo amazing Has anyone ever given you roses? ahh yes. If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive? no, haha. i would die of fear prolly. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone? peacher, i dont really say love you or i love you on the phone. Where is the furthest place you have traveled? MESHICO. i miss you. Which do you prefer, to eat, or sleep? SLEEP. duh. Do you look more like your mom or your dad? daddys little girl. How long does it take you to shower? 15, who is counting though?

i am greatful for you.

I never really realized how much I love my family, and how greatful for them I am.

Daddy; You honestly are such a wierd person. Like the oddest of the odd.. But I love it. You just do whatever you feel like doing and say whatever you feel like saying. The best part about you though is that you don't realize what a nerd you are you just are being yourself and I pee my pants! You have such a funny personality and I love spending time with you. You give me everything that I want and need. And when I am having a hard time you always know how to cheer me up. I am so lucky to have you as a father, I love you to death daddy.

Mommy; You are a creeper, but that is why I love you. I most definitley get my attitude from you. I also get my shopping addiction from you. You bug me sometimes, we bug each other. We clash like no other, but you are my mother and I love you. You always know when something is right or what do to when I am not feeling good. And I am 16 years old and you still don't know what I like on my sandwhich, but that is another reason I love you. You are oblivious and it makes me pee my pants. I love you momma.

Taylor; You are the greatest sister in this whole wide world, you understand every detail of my life. You laugh at literally everything I say, and you are always there for me when I need someone the most. You have been with me through the hardest times in my life and I am so greatful that I have you in my life. I can't believe that you are graduating high school soon, I am not ready for you to leave me. I love you to the moon and back Tay.

Logan; You are a goon. I know that most days we don't get along and we push each others buttons everyday just because. But I really do love you so much. You are my only little brother and you are going to be the cutest boyfriend ever. I love you little bro.

thats whats up.

Saturday, March 26. Brandon, Kaitlyng, Taylor, Keegan, Me, Jonathan, Heather, Pedro. Color Festival. I can't wait for next year, MUAH.

++you can break me down..

YOU. with your highs, and your lows, you can break me down. you can break through my walls and control my every move; and every thought. you can use my heart when needed and then place it back on the shelf.. you can break me down with your highs and lows. but i'll always wait for you, because i have become familiar with the sounds you leave and bring me. i have learned to listen to the silence of you leaving and the screams of you coming home. i have become familiar of the sounds you make everytime you go.. always i'll wait for you. and although you have been gone far, far too long. there isn't a day goes by that i don't miss that smell or that smile, so i will choose to believe in our destiny. because my heart is so strong, its strong enough to take this. if only you could see. always,illwaitforyou.

the thoughts of my day today(:
pbskids.

new findings;

spencer weeks,
ellis overson,
kelly sundberg,
paige sundberg,
we made a new discovery today.
did you know that you actually have body parts called a KAJINA? and i am sure you also know you have a wenis. who? who? who! who names these.. kajina? funny joke. a kajina is the skin between your fingers just so you know, (: whoever named these.. i hope you were not fully there, because you our friend. STRUGGLE.
and now you know cause its the sundbergs short show.

++a life of mess;

++i believe---

i believe that the sun shines after the rain
i believe that if you don't get hurt you'll never gain
i believe in not doing things the easy way
i believe that being selfish doesn't pay

i believe in a second chance
i beleive in a life long romance
i believe that there is life after death
and standing up to a life of mess

i believe in love at first sight
i believe that revenge isn't right
i believe that first impressions last
and there is nothing better than a good laugh

i believe that dreams do come true
i believe there's destiny for me and you
i believe that good things come to those who wait
i believe love never arrives too late

i believe good come from something bad
i believe that for tears of happiness there are tears of sad
i believe everyone has a guardian angel
and the good you do will be rewarded well

i believe sometimes there is no explanation
i believe money can't buy people's affection
i believe you don't know what you've got until it's gone
i believe a new day arrives with every dawn

i believe a smile can be contagious
i believe in being very outrageous
i believe that life is as good as it gets

i believe that God watches over us
i believe that little things are worth the fuss
i believe you have each friend for a reason
i believe you will get punished for treason

i believe that what comes first is family
i believe we should all live in harmony
i believe in making the most of a beautiful day
and it's not the end until everything's okay

i believe absence makes the heart grow fonder
i believe you will lose if you sit and wonder
i believe every experience teaches you a lesson
and nothing cures better than a good crying session

i believe everyone has one true love
i believe sometimes we need a little shove
i believe the whole world is a stage
i beleve we only get better with age

i believe that to learn you have to live
i believe that to love someone you have to give
i believe on moment can change your life
and there's still help when you're in strife

i believe everyone has one true friend
i believe love hleps a broken heart mend
i believe in the power of a song
and things will change before too long

i believe living is the best experience
i believe in not laughing at other people's expense
i believe it's hard to watch a lover leave
and when they're gone all you can do is breath

i believe to always look on the bright side
i believe that life is just one big ride
i believe when i die people will grieve
but its okay, because i believe

++kayla neil

"i believe in leaving loved ones with kind words, because you never know when you will see them again"--timhill

i believe that people are people are placed into our lives for a reason, whether that reason be to change who we are for the better or for the worse.. to make an impact on the person we will be someday, or change the person we are at that moment. at sixteen years old i find myself wondering, why? a lot more than i should. i wonder why i have been faced with the trials im faced with everyday, or why the absence of the person i love the most is still here with me, most nights i lie down into my bed. alone, and all i can see is those blue eyes. and then those tears come flying down my face, yes. i surely do cry myself to sleep most nights. the hole inside my chest, the part of me thats missing kills me each and every night. so my point i'm trying to get to? time. how greatful i have become for time, time so spend with my family each and every night. time to get to know those around me, time to find myself.. and time to listen to the silence. i'll be honest, i'm scared, always scared that i will never be good enough to see your sweet face again. hold that tan warm skin, because.. i never got that chance to say goodbye, i took the time i had with you for granted. i know that you are gone for a reason, and that there is something that i am supposed to learn from you absence.. and believe me; i learn something new everyday. but if i had the chance all i would do is say goodbye, because what if i;m not enough? what if i;m not a good enough person to see you again.. what if. i do my best each and everyday when i wake up, but im still scared. i made a lot of mistakes in the past and although i have been forgivin of them, i still live in fear. and its days like this that i just want to be held. but i am too scared to ever let anyone know of my pain because i don;t ever want anyone to feel sorry for me.. so with my time left here, my time left with the people i love. i will never take a moment with anyone for granted. each and every person in my life has something amazing to offer me, and something to teach me. and because of you, i now understand the importance of time. and although i wish i still had more time with you, i hope one day to see you again.&&and those moments where i sit peacefully in my room and i can feel the beat of your heart take over mine, i am greatful for those times.
--it's amazing what one song, and one poem can do to your mind..
yourstruly//pbs;kids.

god only knows-orianthi

memories.

marks,scars,time.++

have you ever wondered exactly what marks our time on this earth? whether its things youu accomplish, things you miss out on, or simply just the people around you? i have become convinced that its none of these. what marks out time here is our scars. our hurts and the wrongs done unto us. the pain we experience here, that pain that will make us stronger each and everytime we experience it. when the wounds occur, and the pain digs deep into your heart.. that pain? those scars? thats how we know we are alive, and thats how we know how well we lived our lives. i have many scars, i know where my life is markedd. i know where i need to work on things and how much harder i need to push myself.. i still have a ways. but hey, im still tryin.

++we must be willing to get rid of the life we have planned;as to have the life that is waiting for us..--joseph campbell
in my life i have always planned ahead, planned as far ahead as i could. because i lived in fear, fear of everything and in ways.. everyone. but now i see how important it is to take life as it comes. there are some things and sometimes when you need to plan ahead. but big plans only tend to make your life that much harder.. which is what i do not need. everything in our lives happens for a reason.. whether we planned for it to happen or not. realize that fear makes you stronger,don;t let fear make a decision for you, because fear?fear will take away what coulda been... and no one ever gets to see what coulda been.

++yourstruly//pbskids.

the ennnnd.

whats up boss?

OH MY>>>> 6 lbs, 15 oz, 20 in. BOSTON J HARTLEY. welcome home :)

emily allison conrad. you are amazing, you went through this like it was nothing. you are so strong. gee zah. i love you with all my heart, we used to have our ups... and our downs.. but now with this little man in the picture up is the only way to go. you are my very bestest bester and you ALWAYS will be. love you peacher. you know what emily... hahahhaaaaaa.

Listen to paigeebreannees Playlist

and you healed my broken heart.

you know that saying you don,t know what you have until its gone? well i can surely tell you that they are right. all my life i spent so many years being well stupid, typical me. this is extremely hard for me to talk about because i just can,t do it without crying, but here i go. i made a lot of mistakes in my life and although i wish i would have known then what i know now.. i wouldn,t go back and change what i did. because without those mistakes i wouldn,t have learned the things that i did. in my life i took everything for granted; i never thought anything would be taken away from me. but in july of 2009 my life when tumbling down.. fast. i was weak, and unable to speak.. my little heart was broken when i lost cooper, the little boy who was my best friend. a four year old boy.. who changed my life forever. and for him.. i am beyong thankful. it was the hardest trial i have ever had to face.. it has taken me a year to overcome. it has taken me sixteen years to find myself. cooper... i have you to thank for this; but i also have your mother, sister and father.. jana lynn you have changed my heart in so many ways i could never begin to explain.. you are the most amazing person i know and i love you with all my heart. and bear? you will change the world someday.. because you change mine every time i see you; and although i wish he was here sitting next to me.. i know he is up there watching over all of us. and that makes me smile, imissyouandcan,twaittoseeyouagain.

oh los angeles we leave you now,
at the setting of your skies
as we leave the comfort of your ground
with your angels we will fly

well you carried us in broken dreams
like a mother does her sons
we were scattered 'cross your dirty streets
we were dying one by one

and you helf us in your city lights
and we made our peace with lonely nights
and you healed our broken hearts

well they say the Big One's gonna come
and you will fall into the sea
we will know then that your work is done
and your angels will go free

and your angels will go free
and your angels will go free
and your angels will go free